took forever to upload this image.  Weird huh?  Formats.  You'd think to a self-employed-graphic-designer that troubleshooting file formats would be second nature.

there's  another photo coming.  Blogger isn't having it today.  Look at the "older post" for the first of two photos.

real close

I felt like all of the painting was done in the same key....   All of it seemed too light, in a way that was in it's very beginning- too light.  Even if the goal it that lightness it seems fitting that (if for only formal reasons) to have dark in the painting to cover up.

It seems realer.  This seems like a painting I do.  There is more work to do too.

Some pray for rain- others snow. I'm praying for drying.

At certain times in my life I've found that progress is suitable- it's even good.  Like now.  I've spent some time mixing my own oil paint.  I've understood that oil takes longer to dry, but I keep running into patches that won't dry for now.  It's nauseating when looking at deadlines, and accommodating other work.

again... so?

There is a fly in here today.  I've got the place too cluttered to really make a go at him.  I opened the window thinking that he'd fly out.  It's giant.

When I was cooking I'd have to bring water to the table...  or coffee.  Most of the time I'd be in the kitchen cooking and not in front of the customers.  In the beginning I'd keep thinking to myself, "don't pour it on their lap,  don't pour it on their lap..."  I was out of my venue and WAS a little nervous about messing up, but saying that made it interesting.  It was one of the jokes I had with myself and Barry to get into the job.

This painting came out really easily, but to continue I'm going to find that mindset of not pouring in the lap to finish it.

In other news I talked to my dad today about a self portrait project called Faux Pa, where I dress up like my father, recreating memories of he and I and take photos.  He didn't seem opposed to the idea, but when I asked him about taking some of the photos he got a little dodgey, but I don't know how I'd react to that either.

soo...

I'm often putting things off not because I don't want to do them, but usually I set some other task in front of it.  After a while you have a dialog about, "I can't do this now because I haven't done that..."  

Making a painting has little to do with buying batteries, maintaining a blog, or finding a usb cable, but sometimes I suppose it is possible to set that task in front of the making a painting.  

Day 1